I fall to someone with a wrong identity

it's so funny to say, but yes!
well, that's the way I recognized it. Feels like his so real when it
comes to his presence. Anyway, masculinity doesn't prove it well at all.
Maybe he was too wise that he knew how to hide it...

Of course, anybody will do the same. Same feelings occur once you would
come to know him better. You would say that "it's pleasing me secretly".
But I have to restrain myself anyway, for I know that this thing doesn't have
it's slot to render...

Poor I am! I'm just hoping that he would be a bad one so that I wouldn't be
devastated over losing him..

I can fake myself acting like a real friend to lean on. But I might sure as hell
to deny that I'm not falling for him. It's a normal reaction either, but I'll
get used of it once I can find my passion to captivate it.
I f there's another way I can resist this I would go to have it.
But, once your heart ruled your mind, ....
it has nothing to do with it..feels like you've been choking your own neck.

If the only constant in this world is change. I would rather have changed just to
avoid myself being constant to everyone.....or worse to someone else..
that would make things complicated if ever!

I'm that effective, for I can easily have them do.....in the way that I can probably
make them comfortable to stay along with my undying presence. It's so
accommodating!

However, I should have let circumstances flow naturally and care to think of what
may come in a usual way. Strategy perhaps...
That's my expertised!

If the circumstances had been lighter, I would easily fall to someone even with
a wrong identity......

i get so wet

I'm losing time to make pleasure out of myself. I don't mind of every guy does to make oneself happy in a manual way. Well, you know what I mean....
Besides, I don't have to name it!
It inly happens once or it can be more than that. In my case, I'm letting it flow in a natural way where in truth I couldn't find any satisfaction right away I worked just to have it.

I can say that it's not my passion cause you must able to enjoy it in order to have self-pleasure.
I admit, I'm bound nor suppose to experience it either.....but its just that I can't take the guilt inside me...
However, I'm only thinking of self-respect for I have been touched by my ego....
A huge ego, which I love the most!

I'm not saying that I really hate this thing, having "W_T D_EA_" but its just that I can't enjoy it yet as what as other guys do....

my greatest weakness

"Yourself is your greatest enemy" although it doesn't mean a thing but we could practically say that it's undeniably refers to "conscience", more particularly. Anyway, I consider myself as my greatest enemy because of the fact that haunting is always in its way, no escape. Well, I have trusted many people out there before for they mean a lot to me. More than you know......more than they thought .......
I know from the very start that its hard to some to trust people they've met in a short time. But for me, it comes from instinct. It's the matter of being comfortable to each other whoever that person would be....
I trust few not minding if they're really worth it. I was being so rude since then until now...not only for the reason that maybe I just can't stand a man's touch but for the reality of being clumsy in everything I do....I diot!, I always asked myself regarding this matter, and of being blessed myself, to have it....what an unlucky one!

I know this could be a hint, it could be a lesson however, I would still love to trust someone who's not even my bestfriend. Well, it only explains being me. I'd rather love this gift than making someone's fool of himself. I can't stand that!

something happened at the C.R.

If u don't want to hear my side of this story, you can just close this page. But I guess, you don't have to cause I know you are willing to take a ride through this memorable moment I got...I hope so....

This time, I'm not doing quite as well as you thought. I've just get in touched with him by his stuff.
Just figure this out!

As I did gone to the comfort room one afternoon. I just felt so unusual. But that's beside the point. I always gone there to pamper myself before going straight to the classroom. I just felt so uneasy by that time. Regardlessly, I decided to continue along the way in. There was nobody there, I was alone. For instance, once I reached my place to spits these all out. I've heard a gentle noise inside the room. Slowly rendering the whole place but as careful as it was. I just don't mind it either....

As I walked outside the cubicle and was leading along in the front of the mirror to fix myself. I took a glance in an instant. I saw two guys....
They were tall and seemed familiar. I took a part to stand beside them. That's the time I found out. I know this guys!
Well, I saw them sharing powder putting it in their faces sensually. So, I got my bag and look for one. But I haven't brought one. I know, they think that I don't have one for they offered me some. Ashamedly, I don't have any idea but not to refuse his offer.
He's my crush!
Then, few minutes after they left that's the time I tried to step my feet leading to our classroom. I was so happy then for that instance have given me the chance to get closer to the man I definitely adore.....

unwelcomed scenario

Have you ever had hard times? I mean, have you tried to get engage with those instances where you could stand being unlucky. Or it might be worse than that where you could lost something important to you. Take note, not just once but twice....
Well, it really matters at all!

What's really concern about it is that you wouldn't be the one done it. It caused by other's desire....just to make it clear.....
I don't even know how to react but to blame myself is the only thing I probably got....
Idiot I am....

This is my story about losing something special...

There were times when you just felt so happy. I couldn't explain then how happy I was that time. I don't even think of sorrow but unintentionally, it's always finding ways to pave someone's precious moment.

I couldn't even imagine how it happened. I don't really expect that evil thing to exist. Well, that's life! If something has come it corresponds the truth that something has to leave....It's always put it in that way....

As a matter of fact, they were anticipating for something to get. Thiefs are always around us. They get along with us, they interact not minding what's really their purpose. And then what?
Although we, are also giving them hints just to play their damn games.
They really have us do!
Who knows? It would involve you, they, a million of people out there, who else?

All of us, are working, we should work to gain our needs, oops! our personal needs more specifically, but how come? There were many options aside from it ...
There's a lot!
I had lost my cellphone, and now my ipod which is the only stuff left to me and of which I co could be proud of since the moment I lost my cellphone, I have worked to have it. I've worked in order to have it...
It has been my companion, my entertainer, my secrets keeper from worthwhile to naughty files ...etc...
It used to be my bestfriend for everyday I used to go with it. Then, what else? What's next?

However, I can't take losing someone aside from my stuffs - my love ones.
I don't think so, what I could lost next....
i know him, he's only a child, he's young and he's doing evil works...
My God!
I can remember his face, his innocent face, I can't take it off my mind, it's always haunting me. My desire, my courage, nothing but to bring my stuff back to me....
No matter what will happen ...I still have the courage since I have come to engage idiotness!

Damn it!

I just can't control myself now, my anger slowly taking me over this time. It's only a stuff!
A damn poor old stuff of mine but it means more to me than anyone could. I know they do, but unlike me I'm different from who they are. I even treasured it a lot.
It's part of my daily routines .... and I used to live with it...
It's part of me....
It's part of my life!
That's why I'm so angry now...I can't even stand to tell this to others cause they might laugh at me. Well, only few can understand.

I want it back! I just can't stay any longer as this....
Damn that child! He would be punished by God..
I hope so....

Above all this, I am happy for I have found out something I can perfectly keep for a lifetime.......

true gossip

I expect nothing but just a simple conversation. Keeping those in our minds considering it as a great pastime we used to do is the only option I'm always standing for.

For just how many consecutive days, nights we communicate, I've just felt alright every time. He would really take away those bad aura in me making me jolly and be myself wherever I am be.

I know he also cares...
I can feel it..

Here it is....

Unexpectedly, I have heard of something really touched me which aroused my dearest perception for him. I didn't expect those to find out but his classmate said it all...

For the sake, this person doesn't really know how to keep secret!
He was just being open to everything happened in his life. Although in public, it matters for sure!

I have found out that all we were talking about in and out the chatroom was tended to be known by everyone out there...
My body was turning to ice cold once I've heard those revelations..
I was just so ashamed of myself then....I don't even know how to find secluded corner just to hide and keep away from the anticipation that he might say more about me.....

Besides, I let him continue his story quite not minding what he will going to say next. Then, I asked her if those perceptions were positives or negatives. i don't have any idea but to wait for his reply. His next words really moved me in my place...

However, I was so thankful for I haven't hear negative impressions from that stranger..
Chilled feelings slowly fading away. I was so calmed by that time. Thanks for the stranger for ahe had brought me heavenly informations really made my day counts......