my story

This Is My Now - Jordin Sparks Music Code

"whom in green"

They are people whom easy to be with.....
Unintentionally, they know how to get along to others
although those are not in the same levels......
They're like a big brothers and sisters to me
Eventually, they're seem to be that close to me....

Surprisingly, they know how to appreciate things
done in simple ways
They consider things I haven't done because I
know they love me as what I am....
I don't have any hard feelings for them for they
treat me as one of them....

I don't have any doubt for them because
they definitely know how to understand....
I don't have shame for them because they
know how to accomodate....
And I am not bored being with them
because in the first place, they really know
how to entertain.....

I am not upset for they're always telling me hints
I am comfortable with them because they
share advises.....
We are like a big family when we're together
I don't feel uneasy because they always bring
out the best in me.....

I admire them most not only because they're seem
to be that kind to me but of the friendship
I can perfectly seen on them........
And now, even though I'm wearing blue
I might sure as hell to deny that soon I will be
one of those whom in green......

"as a person"

I don't have shame now. It's just that I find myself
starting to enter things maybe I left behind in the past.
I am not that kind of person who always hide a face

and let things flow accordingly by simple doing nothing.
I am more mature now. I am ready to face things
or situation I might been started.

This is what I am. This is me!

"A Classroom Crush"

I have a crush in our classroom. He is tall, dark and handsome. Those were few of his characteristics that really caught my desirous attention. Since, I tried many things just to caught his attention. And it clicked! Every time, I had participated most of our class activities and I definitely didn't know what's magic beyond my imaginations that we were always belonged in the same group. Yes we were!

Both of us, taking any important role in drama, singing, or any interpretation of any particular event. Those things were always connecting us for a common desire just to make things work out accordingly making us close as what we are now.

I absolutely love being who I am now and what I have now. Because that's what he treated me every time we were together. I was so mistaken before that I thought he was the kind of person wasn't easy to be with. But I'm wrong! I'm definitely wrong!

As I know him better, I found that he wasn't the one I was always thinking of and his definitely more than I expected. That's why I like him so much!

Before, I never thought that feeling will last longer. As longer as this. And I simply take this just for fun, considering this as a childish attraction. But it's not! Now that I find it more interesting or more exciting rather, I just wake-up to the reality that I am now in love. Yes I'm in love! In love to someone who really deserves to be loved by anyone. A person who has the heart and the sensuality of being a man-himself. That's him! The man who has an infinite interesting characteristics underneath his lovely innocent face. In love to a very passionate person who has the quality of uniqueness and a very strong presence. That's why I can say that he's definitely one of a kind! He absolutely blinded me with his aura every time we've been together. I was stolen by his very expressive eyes the moment he stared at me. He was always reminding me of what I am now.

And now, I can say that he's probably an inspiration of having a unique and as well as a full of courage living as I start my days on............

"he missed me"

Finally, he missed me. He said that to me the past yesterday we've met. I didn't really know what to say then, but i just smiled at him as a response.
It's unexpectedly funny that he would say those words to me intentionally directed by simply approaching and standing beside me when he first recognized me.

I was so surprised knowing who called my name. It was him. I was so busy then surfing at the internet, checking out my yahoo mails, friendster account, watching my favorite videos on youtube, downloading videos and musics which has always been a part of my daily routines, etc.....

I was so happy then reminding that I wouldn't be the one finding ways just to make my day complete. It was done by fate or maybe he would be....hehehehe...

My time was about to finish when he walked out the door together with his classmates whom became his close friends also. I let him walked out with no response verbally came from me because of maybe I'm illusioning or somewhat I'm feeling what they called "heaven" by that time.

When I walked out the door, I've unexpectedly seen them almost beginning to step forward
on their way home. So, I just decided to join with them walking along the street. We had fun, laughing and just a little bit bonding with his girl companions.

And suddenly, one of his friends asked me to join them strolling at the mall. But I refused to take her offer because I decided to go home early.

They went on their way on as I went on mine. They said "bye" to me and I replied "bye and take care". When I begun to take a ride home as well as they were fading in my sight I decided to text him particularly only by saying "I also missed you all guys, just have fun their and take care!".

Then, I don't ask any reply from him but I know that once he will read it he will know as well as he will feel the same way I felt that night......

........that we've been missing each other.....